Confession:
I’ll be the first to admit, “No, I don’t have it all together.” Although, sometimes it may have seemed that way in the past. In most cases I believed I was fine. I assumed how I should feel about certain things and in what ways I was supposed to act. Yet, what I didn’t realize was the best and only representation of myself should come from “The Real Me;” the person I am and strive to be day to day. However since I’m being honest it wasn’t until the recent events in my life occurred that I realized just how far I’d hidden myself. Subconsciously I’d wrapped myself inside this cloth continuously. Day in and day out I added more layers further concealing myself from reality. I tried to ignore the pressing need to uproot and change the way I thought, processed, and handled myself; yet somewhere deep inside God wouldn’t allow me to.
Before I go any further, I don’t want there to be any confusion. I am a Christian. I do believe in God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. Therefore much of the advice I’ll give and the principles by which I follow have a biblical background. However, although I use the things I’ve learned both spiritually and naturally, I do not wish to belittle, condemn, or undermine anyone or his/her beliefs. My intentions in starting this blog is not to brag about how perfect my life is, because as I stated earlier, I am far from it. In fact, I intend to do just the opposite. Here I aim to inspire, encourage, and challenge others to think, act, and reason differently. It is my personal belief that by stripping away each individual layer I’ve hidden myself underneath and by exposing the rawness of myself I can somehow accomplish one of two things (hopefully both). The first is to combat the idea that Christianity demands worldly perfection and acts that in some way gets you closer to God; and secondly, I pray that in revealing my own personal struggles I’m both able to eradicate myself and others from personal strongholds (be it mental, emotional, financial; whatever).
So throughout this blog; each post resembles a part of my struggle. It embodies my thoughts, prayers, and most of the reasons I’ve cried. The words on this screen may not seem personal to any of you reading them, but they make up the very essence of who I was, who I am, and Whose I desire to be. Not every sad moment resulted in tears and not every victorious moment was recognized instantly; but somehow, somewhere, and I believe through God’s Grace, I overcame; I’m overcoming, and I am an OVERCOMER.
This entire experience is supposed to be centralized around being open and honest about my life as a Christian, as a woman, as an African American, as a leader, and so much more with its many ups and downs. So far, I’ve been quite transparent, and with the next couple of entries, it can only get deeper into my life. Thanks for listening….
“Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit.” -Napoleon Hill